Bread of Stone Blog

Hello to all of you out there!  How’s life treating you?  This past week has been a great week for me.  It started out with my mom wanting to talk to me about life; you know the “mom” talk.  But I was so convicted by the things she was telling me.  If you’ve been to our concert in the past, you’ll notice that I share about what I went through last year.  I talk about how I came to the realization that a life without a true relationship with Christ is absolutely meaningless.  Well, I knew then that this relationship would be a process; it would take time.  Have you ever felt at times when you talk to someone, that you’re speaking directly to yourself?  Well I have.  Many times.  I speak of letting go of pride and humility, but its one of those things that are easier said than done.  So, when my mom was talking to me about what she sees wrong with me, I was in disagreement with her.  My pride kicked in.  Later on that night I decided to stay up all night and focus on what my mom said.  For some reason, I felt a tug on my heart to read a book that someone gave to me on the road.  The book is called Humility.  As I started reading this book, I came upon this part in the book, and it stated:

“That’s the motive and ultimate purpose of pride - to rob God of legitimate glory and to pursue self-glorification, contending for supremacy with Him.  The proud person seeks to glorify himself and not God, thereby attempting in effect to deprive God of something only He is worth to receive.”

I realized then, as I was reading it, that what’s hindering me from being able to love Him or even to feel His love for me, was my PRIDE. If there is one thing that God hates the most, it would be that. This knowledge isn’t new to me, but I never understood it quite like this. I finally felt how God was so hurt by my actions; how I have ignored him for so long. My heart was crushed by this sudden understanding. To my family in Christ that are reading this, how long have we ignored our Lord? There is a song called “Chasing Cars” by Snow Patrol stating:

“We don’t need anything or anyone.”

God needs us and wants us. Yet with our hearts so full of self-glorification, we don’t even bother to see it.

This is what’s in my heart. This life is too short for us to be busy with our own selfish lives. Its time for all of us to make a change and seek after God’s own heart. I encourage those of you out there to join me in this journey to follow our Lord with everything that we have; everything.

Your brother in Christ,
Ben